Jazz Game

We went to the Squatters bar in the Energy Solutions Arena before the game, good food and good drinks great way to start the night.

Just during a time out.

Oh my how I love you D. Will! Deron Williams is my favorite player!!!

New Jersey Nets

9Th row :)

I work for an awesome company and my boss Sandi gave me tickets to the Jazz game the other night. So on the 17Th Jer and me went to the Jazz vs. Nets game. We were on the lower bowl 9Th row right behind the basket, it was so awesome. Jeremy hasn't been to a Jazz game since he was like 10 or something and when he went he was way high in the nosebleed section I guess. So it was really fun to get to take him and have great seats. My Mom was a little upset (not really) that I didn't take her because Jeremy isn't a Jazz fan like she is. So next time I get the tickets I will have to take my Mom, sorry babe! Here are just a few pics from the other night.

Murder Mystery Party

Ok this will be my last post for the day, I am just trying to get a little caught up. On Friday October 29th one of my best friend and her husband KaraBeth and Steve Santillan had a murder mystery dinner party. It was really fun!! The theme was celebrity and the characters we were assigned were Dom Bruise(Tom Cruise) and Shady Nolmes Bruise(Katy Holmes Cruise). Jeremy dressed like Tom Cruise from Top Gun and I just did the best I could for a red carpet Katy.

We went to the house and she had a casino theme, so she had an actual slot machine we all got to play, did appetizers and there were 3 rounds to the game so you got different envelopes that told you what you had to do that round, what to talk about and how to figure out who was the murderer. We had dinner, played games and Nad Hitt (Brad Pitt) played by Steve got murdered!!!

All in all it was a great evening and something that we would like to do again, maybe this time we will host!!!

Best Birthday Present Ever

This is me and Karl after we landed! Isn't my hair awesome!

Getting ready to land

Right after the chute deployed!

Free fall, the best part!!!!!!!!!!!!

Getting on the plane

Me and Jeremy before we got on the plane!

Well if you know me at all you know one of the things I have ALWAYS wanted to do was to jump out of an airplane. I have never found anyone that was serious about going with me so I just figured it would be one of the things that you always wish you could have done but never did. Well when I met Jeremy and he told me that he used to be a Paratrooper and also did skydiving with the 82 Airborne division in North Carolina I told him how jealous I was and that I wanted to go so bad. He told me that he would take me on my 30th Birthday.

So Jeremy had been teasing me for a month saying that he had a surprise for my birthday present and wouldn't tell me what it was, I asked if we were going skydiving and he said "No, I told you I was doing that for your 30th Bday" so I just figured I would have to wait another year before I got to do it. Well my Birthday was on a Friday and after I got home from work he told me that he couldn't keep it a secret anymore and that we were going skydiving the next day, needless to say I was soooooo excited!!! We woke up the next morning and of course this is October so it was crappy rainy weather! We were both really disappointed but I knew we would get to go sometime, so we rescheduled for the next Saturday. The entire day I kept looking outside and asking if he thought it was clearing up enough, it wasn't and Jeremy told me I was like a kid that had candy in front of them but couldn't reach it! It was so true, I wanted to go so bad but the weather just wasn't cooperating.

Fast forward to the next week and the weather turned out to be good enough so we went out to Tooele to Skydive Utah and got to go! Jeremy kept asking me if I was nervous and I really wasn't I was so excited that I didn't have time to be nervous! We got a video done and a picture package so I can always remember my first jump!

The plane ride up was quick and stinky, the jet fuel is awful! Karl the guy I was jumping with was teasing me the entire time saying that this was his first tandem jump and just trying to freak me out! The plane doors opened at 13,800 feet and I watched 8 people go ahead of me and then it was my turn. We got to the edge I took a DEEP breath (it looks like I was scared on the video but really I just couldn't breath) Karl counted and we were out of the plane! The free fall feeling was amazing, we did a bunch of turns and after a minute or so he released the parachute and let me take control! The feeling of falling after the chute goes off is so peaceful I loved it. Before I knew it it was time to land, I was worried I would tank like a lot of people but I put my feet up and just let Karl do his job and we were done!

I can say that it was so worth the 29 year wait and I am going to do it again! I can't wait until I have enough jumps that I can go out by myself!!

I just want to tell my husband thank you! You are the best ever, and I am thankful that you went with me ( I know you did it just cause you love to do it too) but I know you loved that you got to see me do my first jump! You are amazing and surprise me everyday by how much you love me and all the ways you show me your love for me! I can't wait to have many more adventures together in our life! I love you Jeremy more than you know.

Birthday

It was my birthday last week and we went to Black Island Farms with my family that night. It was a blast, we did the corn maze, went down the slides, the funniest part was seeing Melissa climb up the hay ladder:) She has a really bad back so it wasn't the easiest thing for her but she did it! The boys and Emma had a blast! Me and Melissa did this ride that you get strapped in and turned upside down and around and around, it was so much fun! I absolutely love going on any type of rides! After the farm we went to El Burrito for dinner and I got to be embarrassed because they put this HUGE sombrero on you and sing to you, my husband thought it was hilarious!!!

I got seriously spoiled, I got a ton of clothes and Bath and Body works stuff from my Mom and Dad. Melissa and Scott and the kids gave me pictures that they had done of the kids while up in Oregon and a really cute black shirt that has bling on it!

My best present was from my amazing hubby! I will do a separate post all about that next~

I have the best family and am so grateful that they have stuck by me through all my life and all the hell I put them through! I love them all so much!!!

Fun News!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy to finally be able to share some good news in our family!

MY SISTER IS HAVING A BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited if you can't tell! I have been wanting her to have another baby for so long. Zackary will be 7 in July and Jacob will be 6 in September and the new baby is due early January.

I really think that she is having a girl because this pregnancy is so different than either of the boys. She is so sick, throwing up all the time and she NEVER threw up with either boy. She can't smell food or open the fridge if it has something that smells bad to her or she starts to dry heave (which is hysterical). I do feel bad for her cause she actually was supposed to have back surgery TODAY, had it scheduled and everything and for some reason she decided to take a pregnancy test a few weeks ago just to be safe ( she had no clue that she was pregnant) and as you know the test came out positive! So she is in immense pain with her back but she is tough and will be able to do it!

So Wissa if you read this just know that your baby sister is proud of you and excited to have another baby to spoil! I love you and want you to know what a good Mommy you are, your kids are lucky to have you as their Mom. I love you.

Well I hope everyone is as excited as I am!
Kristin

Communication with my Parents is actually paying off.................Who would have ever thought that??? :)

OK so most of you know that even though I love my Mom and Dad more than I could ever express and would never or could ever ask for any other 2 people to be my parents. They are the best parents in the world. I know every child says that but I am being serious. For all of the hell that I have put my parents through growing up, and then this last year it is a miracle that A- They still let me live here and B- They can still stand to look at me and be pleasant. Ha Ha I'm just kidding I hope I haven't been that terrible.

So the reason that I am writing this post is because I have been going to therapy for a while now and I just wasn't getting anything worked out and accomplished so a few weeks ago I switched to a new counselor and can I just tell you............SHE IS AMAZING! I feel like I have gotten further in4 weeks with her than I did in 1 year with the other therapist.

Kathryn is her name and for the last 2 weeks she has had my Mom and Dad come with me. At first I will admit it I was a bit worried and didn't really want them to come. Well I have completely changed my tune, I am so happy that they are coming. We are getting so much accomplished, even though it is hard and tough things are being said and tears are staining our blouses with mascara running down my cheeks!!

I have realized that YES I had some really crappy, hard, horrible things happen to me as a child, and no child should ever have to endure some of the things. But even though I have told myself that I was "over it" and was not letting it affect my life, that I was completely fine and it had no reason why I am unhappy all the time and it had nothing to do with my relationship with Korey and NO CHANCE it had anything to do with my divorce.................THAT IS A LOAD OF CRAP! All of the things that I have been pushing to the back of my head and telling myself and everyone in my life that I am fine I realized that I am not fine. I have not dealt with so many issues, and even though it is so hard to talk about things that I had to go through and re-live some of the terrible times it will all be worth it in the end. I feel that this time I am commit ed to changing my life, changing my attitude and dealing with these things and getting all of the nightmares out of my head, and then just being done with it. I am not going to say that once I have talked about it that it will never come up again and I will never think about it again. No in dealing with it this time I am praying that it will make me stronger and that maybe someday I will be able to help someone who is going through a similar situation, maybe I can help someone BEFORE they make some of the same mistakes that I have made and help them to get through the tough times.

Anyway point being, Yes my Mom and Dad and I have some problems i.e. LACK OF COMMUNICATION, and that is not any fault of my parents because everyone knows they try so hard to talk to me but if it something that I don't want to talk about I shut down! So I just want to publicly say that I am sorry to my parents. I'm sorry for being so hard to live with, for being so miserable all the time because I know the "dark rain cloud" that hangs over my head also puts a damper on our house. My mood affects more than just me. I'm sorry for being so selfish and thinking that my life is so terrible and nobody understand why I am going through. I think back on all of the terrible things that I have said and done just this last year and it just makes me sick! I'm sorry, I can't say it enough but I will be working so hard to make it up to you both.

So I don't want this post to be viewed as something negative, it truly has been an "ah ha" as Oprah would say Night for me. I really do want things to change, to get better, I want to be a happy, fun, successful adult! And I am going to do everything in my power to make this happen. So maybe if you have a spare second when you are saying your prayers just keep me in mind!

I also just want to thank my Sister, she is my very best friend and I could never make it without her! She is the rock of our family, I just wish that she could realize how amazing she is and how much I look up to her! I want to be like her in so many ways. I want to be as fun loving and carefree as she is, I want to be able to laugh at anything and everything as easily as she does. I just hope you know Melissa that you are one of the best people I know and I hope one day soon you can say you are proud of me too!

With that I will say goodnight and I hope you all know that I am always thinking and praying for you all! I love you with all of my heart and am so grateful that you are in my life.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Love

~Kristin~

I Feel....................??????

Has anyone ever asked you how you are and you honestly can't answer? Well that is how I feel. I mean I am not in a terrible mood, I'm not especially sad, I'm not in a great mood I just feel BLAH. I want to get out of this mood too! So if anyone has any brilliant ideas then please let me know:)
Also I am looking for a little 2ND part time job, so if anyone can think of something that I could do part time at nights and weekends that isn't fast food I would appreciate it. I just have to get some more money because I would really like to get things paid off so I can get me a car and more important get my own apartment. My parents just got home yesterday after being gone to their other house in St. George for 3 months. When they left I was very excited but nervous because I didn't know how I would like living alone......well I can officially say that I LOVED IT!!!! So I can't wait until I can get my own apartment or town home or something!!! So cross your fingers that I can do that fairly soon, I think it will be good for me and for my parents, they didn't ask for their adult child to come live with them again and I know that they want there lives back!
So hopefully I can get out of the funk I am in. Maybe I will go running after I get off of work, that has become my latest obsession, I run everyday and usually it makes me feel better!!!!
Well there is my motivation for tonight!
Kris